I thought that I would get over you already. Ang alam ko, makakalimutan na kita ng tuluyan. Pero bakit ganun? Lagi kang bumabalik sa isip ko. Pag nakikita kita, the past comes back. I thought I’m stronger than before. I thought I’m better without you. But you know what, it just became worse. Actually, you entered my mind once pero di ka na lumabas. I thought I’m not into you anymore. I thought that forgetting about you is so easy. But the fact that I still love you, taking you out of my life is the hardest thing to do. I thought I have learned the art of letting go and the art of forgetting the past. My thoughts are wrong. Still, I can’t forget every single detail about you. I can’t forget the memories. I can’t forget the laughter we shared. I can’t forget the tears we shed together. I can’t forget you. But why? Why are you so hard to forget? Anong meron sayo? Bakit ba hindi kita magawang kalimutan at iwanan? Bakit kahit hindi mo ko pinapansin eh lagi pa din akong nandito, umaasa. Sigruo tama nga yung sinabe mu sakin na ‘MARTYR’ ako. Ngayon, alam ko na. Martyr nga talaga ako. Pero ano naman? All I ever wanted is for you to appreciate me. Even just for little things. I’m not hoping for your love. I just wanted us to be friends like before. Yung kagaya ng dati na para tayong magkapatid. That’s all I ever wanted. Nothing else. I just want you back as a friend. Kasi yun lang naman yung relationship na nagkaroon tayo eh. Gusto ko lang ibalik yun. Just talk to me. Be humurous like before. Make me smile when you smile like before. Greet me in my birthday and in Christmas. Itext mo ko ng ‘Hi. Msta?’ Dun lang, masaya na ko. But what I want to clear is, I’m still not over you. I still love you but I’m not longing for your love. I just wanted us to be like before as FRiENDS, BEST FRiENDS, CLOSE FRiENDS. Like BROTHER and SiSTER. [:
You’re still my senpai. My one and only.